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I’m in a transition with my friends.

I don’t have patience for friends who don’t get that I’m busy. Grad school is HARD and time consuming. One of my guy friends went off on me when I told him I was too busy to hang out with him. Talking about “busy” is glorified and blah blah. Listen, I am BUSY. B. U. S. Y. I don’t care if you believe in the word or not. That is what I am. I don’t have time to shoot the shit with you on the phone. Are you going to write these papers and take these tests for me?
One of my girlfriends said “do better” when I told her I don’t have time to go down the hall to her program to do whatever it was she was saying we should do together. Is you gon take this test for me?! No. Stop it.

Don’t guilt trip me.

But then on the other side I obviously need friends and support and laughter and folks to shoot the shit every once in awhile. People I can love and who genuinely love me. I don’t want to isolate myself and not be a good friend to my bffs who need me and my support. Sigh.

Juggling and maintaining relationships is hard in grad school.

Late night thoughts turned early morning posting

I have been trained to make assessments about behaviors and read between the lines. When I’m doing therapy, I’m listening to what is communicated verbally, nonverbally and not at all (which is often some of the most honest stuff).

So when I date I do the same thing.

One lesson I learned from my last relationship is that emotional support and verbal communication is so important to me. Those are two things that are almost “duh” worthy but I NEED these things. ‘My Dwayne’ he made a choice to not be there when I told him I felt scared about certain things in our relationship and certain things in my life. Instead, he judged my faith in God and decided to end the relationship.

So, I know I need someone who will be gentle with me when I voice insecurities. A man who will be kind when I’m going through something. A man who will be strong and confident in things when I’m weak.

And someone who will ask about things I’ve previously shared would bother me. And someone who will readily offer to be there for me, like how I will offer to support him. I wonder if I can show a man how to care for me in that way or if he isn’t showing that now it means he never will. Because I this is what I need.

spiritualinspiration:

Perseverance means that you are focused, that you are believing what God says about your situation. It’s looking away from distractions and any negative, defeating thoughts. Perseverance looks away from discouragement and looks to the Word of God. Perseverance has a voice, and it says things like, “No weapon formed against me shall prosper! If God is for me, who can be against me! I am more than a conqueror through Jesus!”

Whatever you are believing for today, keep believing! Stand strong and fight the good fight of faith. Ask God to give you endurance, perseverance and patience so that you can see His promises fulfilled in every area of your life!

(Source: rebecaxvii)

raaawrbin:

I feel like very few, or at least not many of the people of tumblr are aware of what is going on in my home country Hong Kong right now.

You guys gave alot of coverage and support when Scotland was voting for its independance, so I’m hoping you’ll all support the people of Hong Kong as well.

Right now, many of us are in a mass demonstration of pro-democracy against China. But wait a sec, isn’t Hong Kong China? This is a big misconception amongst foreigners, but please, we are far from being similar to China at all.

A little history class: Hong Kong used to be colonized by the British, and before you white-knights begin going all “them damn white racist ppl taking over another asian country” please don’t. We are thankful Britain took us under its wing and instilled in us values that I feel made us what we are today; that is, a democratic people with respect for free speech, amongst many things.

On the other hand, China is communist, with government controlled media and news. Google, instagram, facebook and many tv shows are blocked in China. It really is just a few steps from North Korea imo.

So what’s the problem here? Britain unfortunately had to hand back Hong Kong to China, but one of the requirements is that Hong Kong be allowed to operate as ‘one country two systems’, meaning Hong Kong should be able to have its own democratic government. But China has broken its promise. A while back, China tried to put a mandatory ‘national education’ curriculum in all our primary schools. We all know what that is; a communist brainwashing regime. And now, they have announced that in 2017 Hong Kong will be able to vote for its president; BUT only from 3 candidates hand picked by its PRO-BEIJING legislation.

As you can see, China is trying to takeover completely and turn us into another communist state.

Of course, we have taken to the streets. In a mirror if the Tiananmen protests, students have also stepped up to fight for our rights and our future, albeit in a peaceful protest of course. But the police force who have always been a friend of the people, are now responding with force, something that had never been done before in Hong Kong.

First it was pepperspray, then teargas. Then, armed forces came in qith rubber bullets. They warn they will come out with live ammunition soon if we do not get off the streets but the people continue to sit tight, disrupting businesses China so strive to takeover and make use of. It’s been 2 days now, but the people plan to continue at least till 1st October or even beyond. The significance is that October 1st is China’s National day, not ours, Hong Kong has not been granted it’s own National day.

Please spread the news. This is a country we’re talking about. These are my people.

You can join this event to wear yellow in support of my people on October 1st.

You can also read a more detailed explanation of what’s going down here and watch a live feed here.

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